All posts filed under: binge

MIA

Ok, so I know I’ve been MIA for a few weeks and I apologize. One of the reasons is because we have had back to back camps in and I just haven’t had the time to sit down and blog for any length of time. Another is the fact that I have been bingeing and I didn’t want to tell you. There I said it. It’s out and now I can move on. It’s really hard for me when we have camps in because when I cook up at camp (I live where I work, so camp is like 1/4 mile up the driveway), I eat at camp. I know that’s just an excuse, but it really does matter. I am not about to cook a meal for 125 people and then cook another one for myself! NOT.GOING.TO.HAPPEN. So I eat what I cook. It’s not that what I cook is horrible. For instance one night a week is usually spaghetti night. With garlic toast and salad. Sometimes I do another vegetable, sometimes I don’t. And …

Another bad day…

Had another bad day yesterday. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s not like I don’t know what I’m doing when I shovel things (marshmallows) into my face with reckless abandon. It’s like I’m outside my body watching, though…helpless to do anything about it. I wish I could just go back and erase it. Obviously I can’t. What’s done is done. There is no magic rewind button on life, peeps. No matter how much we would all love there to be. Hubby brought home pizza last night for dinner. I asked him to because I didn’t feel like cooking. It was good. I can’t blame it on that, though. I had already been spinning out of control before the pizza… I am doing good so far today. I’ve only had water and it’s almost noon. That will either be really good or really bad. It can set me up for a really good afternoon, where I will do good and only eat when I get hungry or set me up for an afternoon of eating EVERYTHING.I.CAN.GET.MY.HANDS.ON. …

Balance

Life is all about balance, people. Finding it can be extremely hard. Right now I am trying to find that perfect balance between the perfect amount (if any) and too much. Let me explain… Last night, I had a Pampered Chef party. I could have any type of party I wanted, but the post my friend made on Facebook was about an ice cream sundae themed party, and I’m down with that, so I went with it. It was a mistake. Granted, I made plans for this party before I came to the conclusion that I had problems with overeating, but it was a mistake nonetheless. Apparently ice cream with all the toppings you could ever dream of (brownie bits, strawberries, peanuts, pineapple, bananas, chocolate chips, cookie bits, etc) is a trigger for me to want to eat EVERYTHING.ON.THE.PLANET. Then I came home and my hubby (God love him) made s’mores over the gas stove in the house. 🙂 I did not have s’mores, but I did proceed to eat several marshmallows and some gluten-free cookies that …